Last weekend, I took a walk with my best friend, Safa, and brought my camera. I decide that it was time I try to teach myself how to operate the very thing I am trying so hard to be in front of. Most of you that know me know that I am a lifelong learner and that I try my best to understand as much as I can about the goals I have for myself. I like understanding as much as I can. So, I got my camera and my best friend, and we went on a walk.
As I was learning how to properly operate my camera, I was thinking about how so much of what I'm trying to do is based on someone hiring me to do it. And I know that this is true of every industry, but that's so great about being a creative that you can be creative... WHENEVER YOU WANT TO BE. So why wait to be hired to be creative? There is no reason I can't write my own work, I have before. There is nothing stopping me from learning about to properly use a camera. So the real question is... what is stopping me? I can try to blame time, but even I'm tired of that excuse. I have a head full of ideas, a summer in NYC, and a camera. The world is literally my oyster, and I'm in charge of my choices.
I was speaking with a friend of mine, he is also a creative, and we were talking about how some people have this natural ability to attack a blank page. How they can sit down, and write a story. Write about a feeling they had on a Wednesday Night. Sing a melody that makes someone smile. He said he wished he was able to do that easily. But, what was funny about that conversation was that I have never had a problem writing out thought or creating an idea. I have always had a hard time trying to execute exactly what I want to create. It frustrating. To me, he has the opposite problem. He ponders an idea for while, creates the idea in physical form, and then its out there. His ability to execute what he wants for himself is something I have always found inspiring and it motivates me to do the same. I just need to start.
So, here is the plan. Ndanu is going to create something this summer, and the world will see it in physical form. Will it be releasing her first single? (I hope so because I've been sitting on so much music lately). Will it be write and producing a short film (Maybe. I have a camera and a head full of ideas). Will it be a fashion show of all the clothing I've designed this past year? (Who knows!) What every it is, I'm just ready to start. And now that I have posted and talked about this openly on my blog only motivates me to do it.
So.
Last Weekend...
I Took A Walk.
And I made a decision.
**These photos were taken on that walk by Safa Ahmed. ;)
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